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~Die2Live4Ever:iconDie2Live4Ever:

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Time to rant and rave

Journal Entry: Sat May 17, 2008, 6:39 PM
  • Mood: Emotional
  • Listening to: Lacrimosa - Lichtgestalt
  • Reading: Die Leiden Des Jungen Werther - Goethe
  • Watching: ....
  • Playing: with my empty pack of smokes
  • Eating: dunno yet.
  • Drinking: I want coffee. Pleeeease.
Be warned, rant ahead... :
What the effing hell is wrong with some people?! Seriously.
What kind of person stops talking to you, taking your calls and doesn't answer your texts for apparently no reason? And then when you dare ask some mutual friends what the fuck is going on, she accuses you of stealing away her friends. Heeeeello? Are we in frickin third grade? Then you find out said person has had a problem with you for at least 2 months. And you try calling her again and still you get no answer, leaving you absolutely clueless as to what the hell happened. Oh yeah, the person totally knows that you've been going through a lot lately, too.

I mean, it's really cool with me when she wants to have some space to think it all through and maybe calm down a little bit. But 3 weeks? That's being plain evil, especially since she knows she hurting me a lot.


Here's three things I feel the need to share:

1) Being betrayed by someone who you considered a friend is a real bad feeling
2) Being a constant victim of your own thoughts is far more worse than 1)
3) Having both things happen to you at the same time... that's something I wouldn't wanna happen to anyone. It's not a good place to be. Quite frankly, it sucks.
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On another note, I was at Anna's yesterday and went home around 10, just to find my brother's friends being all over the place. They're all pretty nice, plus they're good looking ---> soooo not complaining here. So yeah, anyways, after a while they all went to some bar except for one guy and we talked for like 3 hours and man, I haven't ever met a member of the male population who was that insightful or emotional. And he gave me a bunch of cigs which made it all the more awesome.

And there's something else, y'all should check out Franny's new blog [link], which honestly is a blast to read =)

Alrighty, I'm gonna go eat something now and try to accept the fact that I'm all out of cigarettes... wish me luck.

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 17
  • Current Residence: Germany
  • Interests: Friends/Photoshop/Piano/Music/Thinking/Psychology/Pseudo-Philosophy
  • Favourite movie: The Hours
  • Favourite band or musician: Nightwish, Children Of Bodom, Epica, Lacrimosa, Deine Lakaien, For My Pain, Deathstars,Samsas Traum
  • Favourite genre of music: Metal/Gothic/Darkwave
  • Favourite artist: Caspar David Friedrich/Victoria Francés/Viona Ielegems
  • Favourite poet or writer: Emily Dickinson/E. A. Poe/Virginia Woolf
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod
  • Favourite cartoon character: Homer Simpson
  • Tools of the Trade: Life/Emotions

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~Die2Live4Ever:iconDie2Live4Ever: Jun 24, 2008, 2:02:41 PM
You're welcome :)

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To look life in the face,
always to look life in the face, and to know it for what it is. At last, to know it, to love it for what it is, and then … to put it away.
Always the years between us, always the years.
Always the love.
Always the hours
*Bernardumaine:iconBernardumaine: Jun 24, 2008, 1:58:41 PM
Thanks for faving "Helter skelter " :-)

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The Exquisite Corpse
~darkrosesforall:icondarkrosesforall: Jun 24, 2008, 8:44:38 AM Mood: Joy
Yes she just recentl got postcards from her. Also Its been Summer vacation for about a week for us. Oh and my hair is now streaked with red. Its awsome. My mom says hi.

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I picked gaara a flower but i eated it, will he mind? I love you Gaara. Its thought that counts, isnt it????

:.( <- Thats me crying. I am doing puppy dog eyes though.
~Die2Live4Ever:iconDie2Live4Ever: Jun 24, 2008, 5:20:38 AM
I'm almost finished with all my exams for this school year, YAY! Summer break is real close :)
So yeah, I'm doing pretty good...
Do you guys still write or talk to Diana?

--
To look life in the face,
always to look life in the face, and to know it for what it is. At last, to know it, to love it for what it is, and then … to put it away.
Always the years between us, always the years.
Always the love.
Always the hours
~darkrosesforall:icondarkrosesforall: Jun 23, 2008, 8:35:13 PM
Were fine and you?????

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I picked gaara a flower but i eated it, will he mind? I love you Gaara. Its thought that counts, isnt it????

:.( <- Thats me crying. I am doing puppy dog eyes though.
~Die2Live4Ever:iconDie2Live4Ever: Jun 22, 2008, 3:06:20 PM
Hey! How are y'all doing back in Salem? :hug:

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To look life in the face,
always to look life in the face, and to know it for what it is. At last, to know it, to love it for what it is, and then … to put it away.
Always the years between us, always the years.
Always the love.
Always the hours
~darkrosesforall:icondarkrosesforall: Jun 21, 2008, 6:37:57 PM Mood: Affection
HALLO!!!

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I picked gaara a flower but i eated it, will he mind? I love you Gaara. Its thought that counts, isnt it????

:.( <- Thats me crying. I am doing puppy dog eyes though.
~queenofchocolate:iconqueenofchocolate: Jun 13, 2008, 6:22:25 AM
heyyy, so i havn't commented in forever on anything of yours and your last two posts here are by me... isn't that sad? anyway, the thing is i really like your pictures muchos but i never know what to say, they are beautiful though, thats why i favorite them... usually :) sometimes i forget i guess... you know me. but yeah thanks a bunch for my loverly blog comments, they are very much appreciated and while i'm talking about appreciation, don't forget to send your poems to mrs. h-kiki!
so to conclude this all just thought i'd mention again (in passing :P) that i love you very much! and i wish you fun on your exploring stuttgart tour! maybe i'll join you on one of your trips
~Die2Live4Ever:iconDie2Live4Ever: May 24, 2008, 4:54:20 AM
Thanks a million =)

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To look life in the face,
always to look life in the face, and to know it for what it is. At last, to know it, to love it for what it is, and then … to put it away.
Always the years between us, always the years.
Always the love.
Always the hours
~queenofchocolate:iconqueenofchocolate: May 23, 2008, 9:39:11 AM
hey, wow nice feelings you have there. i would not like to be in your shoes (no, not only because they are springers and warm and sweaty and 5 sizes to small, i really pity you). maybe you should just pay denise a surprise visit and make her talk to you, so you at least know where you stand...
and what's up with you checking yourself your bro's friends?
~uncoverart:iconuncoverart: May 20, 2008, 11:25:52 PM
i'll ask her and let ya know.
~Die2Live4Ever:iconDie2Live4Ever: May 18, 2008, 3:45:22 AM
It's a Canon, and it raaaaaaaaaawks!
I bought it online and I'll probably get it tomorrow, so I'm all kinds of excited right know...
Do you by any chance know if Dan sent the stuff I left at her place already? She doesn't write back... *sniff*

Miss you :hug: all of you guys....

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Two saddened angels
In heaven, in death
~uncoverart:iconuncoverart: May 12, 2008, 7:09:41 AM
shoooot girl the house to yourself. Freaking lucky. That's lame that Danielle can't come out. I wish I could come see you! Mannn, why do we have to live so stinkin far apart? EHHH.

That's sweet about the new camera though, what kind is it?
Bye girl! :firelite-photo: (I don't know why there is a flame on the camera, but I like it)
~Die2Live4Ever:iconDie2Live4Ever: May 9, 2008, 8:08:16 AM
Heeeeeeey, I know it took me forever and a day to reply, sorry. Yeah, I'm pretty good right now, my family is going to Italy for two weeks and I have the house all to myself, woohoo!
Soooooo, Lion told me that Danielle isn't gonna come over during the summer break. Meh. Makes me all sad and depressed. Oh yeah, you could tell her to write back sometime soon.

Man, I wanna come visit you guys so bad, but I'm totally broke right now (just bought a new camera)... I'm gonna stop here or I'll be in a pissy mood for the rest of the day. Miss you muchos :hug:

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Two saddened angels
In heaven, in death
~queenofchocolate:iconqueenofchocolate: May 8, 2008, 8:08:58 AM
hey girl, i'm kinda well, not really bored, more trying to avoid math homework so i'm randomly posting here now... whoohoo... of course it's also cause i love you so much that i just can't go for more than a week without leaving you a comment somewhere!
I LUUUUUV JUUUUUU
~uncoverart:iconuncoverart: May 2, 2008, 12:08:45 AM
HEY! I haven't talked to you in forever! How are things going? I'm sad you aren't here anymore!
~cadaverEYES:iconcadaverEYES: Apr 30, 2008, 8:09:33 AM
well glad u like it :) thanks alot again :)
~Die2Live4Ever:iconDie2Live4Ever: Apr 30, 2008, 7:12:03 AM
Hey, that was really awesome and,
I just gotta say it, unbelievably cute :heart:

Anyways, you're welcome!

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Two saddened angels
In heaven, in death
~cadaverEYES:iconcadaverEYES: Apr 30, 2008, 1:07:14 AM
german :) .. ok then here goes nothing :
vielen Dank für die :+fav:, dass war sehr nett von dir :)
~Die2Live4Ever:iconDie2Live4Ever: Apr 11, 2008, 7:17:10 AM
I miss y'all, too! Love you muchos :hug:

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Two saddened angels
In heaven, in death
~darkrosesforall:icondarkrosesforall: Apr 10, 2008, 5:38:49 PM Mood: Sadness
MEEE Again!!!!! Miss You

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I picked gaara a flower but i eated it, will he mind? I love you Gaara. Its thought that counts, isnt it????

:.( <- Thats me crying. I am doing puppy dog eyes though.
~Die2Live4Ever:iconDie2Live4Ever: Apr 10, 2008, 5:43:36 AM
Heeeeey, how are you doing?

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Two saddened angels
In heaven, in death
~darkrosesforall:icondarkrosesforall: Apr 9, 2008, 3:39:56 PM Mood: Affection
hello julia!!!!

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I picked gaara a flower but i eated it, will he mind? I love you Gaara. Its thought that counts, isnt it????

:.( <- Thats me crying. I am doing puppy dog eyes though.
~Die2Live4Ever:iconDie2Live4Ever: Mar 24, 2008, 5:32:21 PM
Awww, thanks hon I miss you too! Hope you have a great time in NYC! Say hi to your mom and sis, okay? Love you :hug:

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Two saddened angels
In heaven, in death
~darkrosesforall:icondarkrosesforall: Mar 21, 2008, 7:38:50 PM
miss U :-( 3/21/08 after i left Dianna i cried

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I picked gaara a flower but i eated it, will he mind? I love you Gaara. Its thought that counts, isnt it????

:.( <- Thats me crying. I am doing puppy dog eyes though.